Audrey Lange the Fake Angmoh.
So this post is going to delve quite a bit into my background. As the title says, I'd like the address two elements in that phrase. 'Fake Angmoh' and 'Fake'.
1. Fake Angmoh
So the name was born back when I was in Temasek Poly; many people thought I was 'angmoh' (a racial epithet describing Caucasian) just because of my colored eyes.
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(Left to right: Bro-in-law, sister, daddy, nephew, mummy, nephew, myself and sister)
For those who still have that misconception, I'm actually Eurasian; My dad has a mix of European, Iban and Balinese blood and my mum has a mix of Australian, Peranakan and a little bit of English (Mum and dad, please correct me if I'm wrong). So when it came to me, it was pretty much Rojak. I was very lucky among my siblings to get the most obvious of colored eyes and I'm grateful for that.
Sidetrack a little, my poor sister, Jillian, was not as lucky in the mixed-blood gene pool. She got the most Asian of eyes and sometimes...can end up looking quite out of place in our family portraits haha (but that's not to say Asian eyes arn't nice!!). There was once she even told me she thinks Mum and Dad might have picked her up from somewhere and adopted her. Lol but eyes aside, a lot of people always say she's really pretty so, Jill! Don't be sad uh?!
Ok now back to the point, I got the label of Fake Angmoh somewhere in poly. Can't remember by who exactly but I have gotten quite attached to it..lol. Prior to knowing me, most would think I'm Angmoh (ok and a lot of other things like Malay, Chinese, Indian, Filipino all got also). But when I open my mouth...now...there you'll see the true blue Singaporean in me. - Yes, I'm proud to say i'm born and bred here in Singapore:) I use a lot of Singlish and for some reason, learning Malay as my second language has caught on to my daily way of speaking - so without knowing, I can sound quite..minah. (All the minahs out there, no offense! Relak Je! We member member k.. don't angry). So yeah, just wanted to set the record straight! I'm Eurasian, Singaporean and if you were ever wondered why some people call me that, then now you know how it how it came about!
2. Audrey Lange is damn Fake
Whoa...what?
So no, I'm not calling myself fake but it's a term that I've heard some people call me before. I'm pretty lucky that I haven't heard much negative things about myself (or maybe cause I'm pretty low-profile) but, I think I've heard people call me this behind my back about twice already.
So...I wanted to address it once and for all.
Basically... God blessed me with a very happy-go-lucky spirit and I just don't get angry as often (hmm...given that we're not including my menstrual period uh..). I also have this thing about treating people the way I'd like to be treated (which is very nice, so please uh, take note. kthx). So in-turn, I end up being as nice as I can to everyone.
So... after my personal explanation, let me set the record straight.
If you and my friends/boyfriend have a problem with each other, it does not mean that you have a problem with me or I have a problem with you. I believe in equal treatment and I don't see why I'd have to hate on you just cause my friend does (especially if you didn't do anything bad to me). So...if I'm nice to you, I'm genuinely being nice. Please don't take it as I'm being sly or fake or what not. The whole world may hate you and you may have your guard up, but if I treat you right, I'm genuinely doing so. I don't do fake.
This whole Fake shit happened in Polytechnic where this girl's boyfriend and my boyfriend, Shawn had some sort of tiff going on. Naturally, I would think, the problem does not exist between her and me and we could still be friends! But.... I guess some people question the logic of things and she ended up telling others she thinks I'm quite fake. WHAT. I don't get it. And she was nice to me too and I thought we were all living in a very happy world...until I found out from about it. But alas, (to her) if you are reading this, I know it was long over and I'm not harbouring any negative feelings towards you, but I think it served as a classic example to back my point up. I definitely still question your actions but you seem like a nice girl so, just don't be too quick to judge next time, aye?:)
So, I admit this was all a very childish matter and it's been a while since I heard someone call me fake but I thought I'd just address it so people don't misinterpret my intentions. I love spreading love and joy to everyone (for some strange reason) and it always feels like the pits when people think otherwise. LIKE WHERE IS THE LOVE YO. Or more like...where are your brains ah. Lol, ok joke.
That leads me to my concluding point.
IF I don't like you, I will not even look at you or give you any time of day. I will not waste my time on you. If we are forced to interact, I will do so diplomatically but do not expect me to smile and laugh with you, because I don't believe in putting on a front. SO IF I'M NICE TO YOU, then... I truly like you! And feel that you're worth it. So.... STOP MISREADING MY ACTIONS.
So if you got to the end of my very lor-sor story. Thank you and I really appreciate it. :)
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Jumping back to the present
Well, it's been a good, challenging week for me so far. Working at Gushcloud has been stressful to a certain extent but very rewarding as well. I'm really just very happy to be where I am right now. :) I hope you've had a really great week so far and perhaps have some fruitful plans for the weekend!:) Off I go now...
Bye!
Love, Audrey
